I am reading Waking the Dead and wanted you to know that I am feeling my heart come alive...I am moved to my core (my heart) that there is hope for me.  You see my heart was broken, as a child, because my parents didn't have the courage to fight my adult sister who had issues involving sibling rivalry.  In her mind, my parents shouldn't have had me, and she made feeling a part of my family very hard.  I grew up wondering "what did they do with the kids that didn't belong".

Fortunate for me, I became pregnant in college and sought counseling as I gave up my child for adoption.  My parents were there for me, as they realized that my getting pregnant was a final cry for help.  And I later found the strength to confront my sister and tell her that "it was not my fault" that I felt left out and unloved.  It was her issues that led our family through all those difficult years.  I was loved all along! As was she, I asked her to get help for her problems and leave our family to grow and love each other.  She hasn't yet.

My birth-son Michael found me this past September on Facebook.  He was reaching out to find something that was missing in his life, and had always wanted to know me.  The subject line on his post said, "I don't want anything from you - I just want to thank you for my life".  What a beautiful thing to say!  He had been through a lot in his life lately, got hurt in the Navy Seals training program and lost his daughter's mother in a car accident.

I don't believe that it was an accident that we reconnected.  I think it's a blessing and a gift from God that we may have a second chance.  I have a lot to give him and he to me.  We both have suffered great loss and I think it's time to heal our hearts and take a journey together.  He has a good heart, and so do I!  I wanted you to know that your books, both Captivating and Waking the Dead have helped me see this.  May God Bless You and keep you doing your amazing work - it's SO NEEDED.

From the bottom of my heart, thank you!

I'm Listening,

Janice